Desire

Konica128519

 

When day returns

like something never reached

Aflame
on the air.

Then
(O muse)
let me speak
from my dream

of her eyes

I so wanted
to meet
with mine.

(Yet
which always
stayed
behind their clouds.)

 

Just once
(Yes!)

Let me sing

while still
I lie
and seek

Imagined dawns

New-breathed.

Inspiring
to the lungs.

 

Or wish
for years
less lost.

 

As these
thoughts

attempt light.

 

Through
mere networks

of signs.

 

 

 


 

 

(Above is a piece based on poetry written aged 23.
I’ve felt unable to create poems, lately, due to illness.
Hope you think it works?)


(Below is a prelude to this post…)


 

 

Digital nightmare!

 

After logging in, unfamiliar sights transfixed me.
Waves of anxiety coursed through my body.
What was happening?

The screen now resembled a strange, alien puzzle.
A digital nightmare began.

The WordPress Block Editor had taken over! 😱

ARGH!!

 

(I soon nicknamed it “Blockheaditor”.)

Perhaps designed by geek sadists?
(Who’d decided we tech-phobes were not suffering enough already,
just trying to be bloggers.)

Being a humble poet: an image with some words underneath was all I knew.

Struggling against disorientation: a panicky nausea arose.
As if betrayed by a trusted friend.

Amid confusing options, I sought pathways to coherence.
Painful hours passed.

Finally, my nervous hand crept toward the “Publish” button.

Would this reveal success?
Or disaster?

Click!

I squinted into an electronic glow.

Had the words appeared correctly?

There?

 

HERE?

 

 

 


 

 

Have any others found the Block Editor an unwanted change?

It may be great for those with more ability than me.
Or who need extra features.

But I prefer freedom of choice to compulsion.

 

Comments are always very welcome!🙏

 

Thank you 👏
for reading.

 

(Art on the blog is mine: I hope you like it?)

 


 

(PS:

Sorry for the lack of content, recently.
Depression’s been hitting me hard.
Motivation got crushed.

Intended to post at least once per month, but failed.

On the positive side, I’m still active:
following 277 people;
using the reader,
and discovering new blogs.)

 

Wishing you all well.🙂

 


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70 thoughts on “Desire”

  1. I just want to say this is brilliant. I don’t have many words right now.
    I am just so much hating technology, yet it seems one can’t live without it.
    But thank you for publishing this. nice drawing of la Monroe with diamond earring. 🙂
    Wishing you a happy Sunday evening… 🙂

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  2. I enjoyed this. It has a feeling of weightlessness but also the weight of expectation. Lyrical and floating. Well done.
    As regards the WordPress block editor I fully understand your frustration.
    I was on the verge of quitting blogging as a result of having to change, but found a block called “verse” which seemed to more or less fit. It was relatively painless!
    Thinking about writing is as important as writing.

    ER

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    1. Thank you, Eric!😊
      That’s an original analogy, “weightlessness”, which I haven’t had anyone mention, before.

      And yes, I saw the verse block. May try using it in future.
      But managed to do this post with just the classic block,
      which seemed simplest, for a first attempt.

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    1. Thanks, Wendi!🌞
      Lovely to hear from you, as ever!

      I hadn’t realised you shared my opinion: (probably because your blog always looks so nice)
      and thought you might be pretty happy with the new block(head🙃) editor, LOL!

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  3. No worries about the content. Especially when you aren’t feeling good because of depression.
    And about the block editor, I also had my struggles with it sometimes, so I see what you meant.
    It is not a problem, when maybe some words are not correct or the design is messed up. As long as your message comes through and you were able to say and share, what you wanted to be out there.
    People who care, won’t judge by the appearance or judge at all.
    Sending love! ❤ 💜 ❤
    – A stranger 🙂

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  4. I understand the depression and lack of motivation – I am experiencing it as well.
    I, too, despise the new block editor and I don’t know what they were thinking. Probably to get some more money to make us pay for a higher level.
    I don’t know if this will work for you, but I found a way to get to the “classic editor.” I save the draft of the post right away, then when I open all posts to work on it again, when hover over the name of the post. Links appear beneath it and one of them is “classic editor.”
    I have an older theme and I am on the premium plan, so results may vary.

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  5. Oh gosh, you aren’t alone Ken! In the depression, lack of inspiration, nor the blockheaditor.
    I have two pages I made in the block editor which worked well for me, BUT for general posting, I don’t use it and use the old editor. I’m just glad WP made a (quiet) way to do this… because the block editor does NOT lend itself to poetry (though is “okay” for other types of writing, IMO).

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    1. Thank you, Tara!🌞
      I’m sorry to hear you are low on inspiration.

      Also, I wondered, have you found a way to actually get back the old editor?
      Or are you using the “classic” block (inside the new one), like me?

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      1. I have always written in html anyway, so it’s not too different on the back end. They are calling is “classic” block, but it isn’t a block at all. Now, I don’t know if it’s my theme, which is at least three years old that I know of, or what, but when writing on my phone’s app, I have zero issues, everything is as it was. Working on my pc, it looks slightly different, with a few minor changes, but not enough to bother me too much.

        So I guess my answer is: in admin I selected to write in the “classic editor”, though on the pc is calls it “classic block”, but I continue to write in html.

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        1. Thanks Tara!
          I’m not tech-savvy enough to use html, though admire that you are.👏
          I only have desktop, and got forced into the “blockheaditor” when opening the “new post” screen.😧

          Using the “classic block” seems nearest to what I am familiar with.
          Perhaps they put it in to stop some of us giving up altogether, LOL!

          (There’s a “verse” block, as well, but I haven’t explored it yet.)
          Thanks again!😊

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          1. Oh?! I have not heard of the verse block. Though admittedly I have fought the block editor since they introduced it several years ago. Thanks for the tip because I think I’d like to look into it.

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  6. Hi Ken, I don’t have a specific comment about this post, I just wanted to say hi. And I suppose I, like you and many others, can relate to logging into a site one day and finding it’s ALL DIFFERENT! ARGH! Where did they put the whatchamacallit??? Anyway, I enjoy your posts and the artwork. Isn’t this online world amazing? Connections with strangers all over the world. Crazy stuff.

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  7. Love all of this. I feel like my 23 yr old self wrote the same. 😂🤣
    I just started my site and it took me half a day to figure out the blockheaditor lol… so frustrating, but I finally got it.
    Also, try to get outdoor time in each day, either a walk during the day or even night. Makes a huge difference, and almost immediately!!
    Feel better soon!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words, Samantha!🌞
      Half a day sounds pretty quick, to master the blockheaditor, LOL!

      As for going out: unfortunately, illness tends to make me housebound a lot.
      (A magazine article, linked to the (July) post “Fame!”, gives more info about my situation.)

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      1. oh wow, i’m so sorry to read that – 😦 i hope someone is working on some kind of cure? i’m sure you’ve explored all sorts of therapies and remedies? what a bummer… :/ glad the internet provides an outlet for you and connects you to people around the world!

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  8. As to the WordPress editor changes, I’ve not noticed it as much. I use Open Live Writer for most of post editing for the past few years. As far as I know Open Live Writer for Windows only, as it’s a free and open source follow-on to the old Windows Live Writer. Works well with WordPress for my needs.

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  9. I hate the block thing as well. There is a switch (somewhere) where you can go back to the previous system.
    I like “years less lost” and “networks of signs” – cleverly done.
    Keep writing. Throw nothing away. Some poems need time and experience to complete.

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    1. Thank you for the feedback, Ian!🌞
      And yes: some of my poems have taken a long time to reach their current form.
      Afraid I’m unaware of any way to get back to the previous system, though.
      (Please let me know if you find out how it’s done!🙏)

      (WordPress hid your comment in the spam, so I only just discovered it.)

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    1. Thanks Moises!
      You’re being too kind. No, really, LOL!😄
      The second part (“Digital nightmare”) was intended as prose, but I kept lines as short as possible for easy reading.
      Does look a bit poem-ish, though. So I’m kinda flattered if you think of it as one.😊

      (Great to see you back: I noticed you hadn’t posted for a little while.)

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      1. Haha, no problem. Yes, I do think it is a poem. It’s good to see more of your work as well! Life has its rhythm, a time for everything, sometimes a break is needed.

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  10. I am really fond of your poetry, as well as your strong indomitable will, which is pushing you through these challenging times that you are facing. I am confident that you will power through this and come out much stronger.

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  11. I really enjoyed reading this, especially the section on the WP Block Editor. Although I found the Block Editor to be a welcome change, there are other aspects of WordPress to which I find myself regularly cursing. I hope you feel better soon.

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