Desire

Konica128519

 

When day returns

like something never reached

Aflame
on the air.

Then
(O muse)
let me speak
from my dream

of her eyes

I so wanted
to meet
with mine.

(Yet
which always
stayed
behind their clouds.)

 

Just once
(Yes!)

Let me sing

while still
I lie
and seek

Imagined dawns

New-breathed.

Inspiring
to the lungs.

 

Or wish
for years
less lost.

 

As these
thoughts

attempt light.

 

Through
mere networks

of signs.

 

 

 


 

 

(Above is a piece based on poetry written aged 23.
I’ve felt unable to create poems, lately, due to illness.
Hope you think it works?)


(Below is a prelude to this post…)


 

 

Digital nightmare!

 

After logging in, unfamiliar sights transfixed me.
Waves of anxiety coursed through my body.
What was happening?

The screen now resembled a strange, alien puzzle.
A digital nightmare began.

The WordPress Block Editor had taken over! 😱

ARGH!!

 

(I soon nicknamed it “Blockheaditor”.)

Perhaps designed by geek sadists?
(Who’d decided we tech-phobes were not suffering enough already,
just trying to be bloggers.)

Being a humble poet: an image with some words underneath was all I knew.

Struggling against disorientation: a panicky nausea arose.
As if betrayed by a trusted friend.

Amid confusing options, I sought pathways to coherence.
Painful hours passed.

Finally, my nervous hand crept toward the “Publish” button.

Would this reveal success?
Or disaster?

Click!

I squinted into an electronic glow.

Had the words appeared correctly?

There?

 

HERE?

 

 

 


 

 

Have any others found the Block Editor an unwanted change?

It may be great for those with more ability than me.
Or who need extra features.

But I prefer freedom of choice to compulsion.

 

Comments are always very welcome!🙏

 

Thank you 👏
for reading.

 

(Art on the blog is mine: I hope you like it?)

 


 

(PS:

Sorry for the lack of content, recently.
Depression’s been hitting me hard.
Motivation got crushed.

Intended to post at least once per month, but failed.

On the positive side, I’m still active:
following 277 people;
using the reader,
and discovering new blogs.)

 

Wishing you all well.🙂

 


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154 thoughts on “Desire”

    1. Thanks, Elaine!🌞
      Well you’ve managed to like and comment, very well, here already!
      Feedback helps bloggers feel appreciated and connected.
      But there’s no need to overthink: a few simple words are fine.
      To be honest, I often can’t come up with anything at all, so just leave a like.
      I discover new people by following various tags on the WordPress Reader.
      (“art”/”poem”/”drawing”/”photography”; etc.) I spend hours on there!

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  1. Beautiful poetry with an intensity that is palpable. You always write so beautifully.
    And the art is so beautiful!
    And about the blockeditor…ahhhh..you have no idea how much I have struggled with it.
    It’s annoying, and I really preferred the previous format, but I guess technology..
    Love the hilarious prelude..blockheaditor..hahaha!

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    1. Sorry to learn you struggled with the Blockheaditor(😧), Harshada!
      Being old, I tend to imagine young people find such tech stuff easier.
      (Well, they probably do: but just not always, LOL!)

      And, what can I say, about your feedback, except a big THANK YOU!
      Your comments are so amazingly positive, on my art and writing.

      So great to hear from you again!🤗
      (I really missed you.😔)

      Like

  2. Wonderful sketch and follow up poem. I HATE the blockheaditor as well. People always messing up a good thing (coke vs new coke) ugh!! Well don’t let things get you down, I know it’s not an easy process to get out of that rut. Good wishes n blessings. 🙂🌻

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  3. Sometimes, Well More So Lately, Depression Tries To Derail Me. It Seems Like It Is Some Invisible Monster That Just Wants To Rain On My Parade. I Struggle To My Feet, Then Grab An Umbrella & Start Writing To Wait Out The Storm. You Are Not Alone In This Battle. & You Are A Teacher To Others That You May Never Know.

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