At an end?

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(Third blogiversary post.)

 

 

From a summit
the only way leads down.

 

Starting this site, three years ago, it felt like I had a mountain to climb.

Chronically ill. Isolated.
The last of our family line.

Worried a lifetime’s creative output might be lost, once I died.

Eager to preserve some work, I blogged.

Through pain, exhaustion, vertigo, brain-fog, depression, infections, migraines,
technical ignorance, self-doubt, and bereavement.

 

Told regularity was important, I stuck to Sunday posting.
Never missed a week.

 

Yet, now I’ve reached a kind of end.

Until this point the path’s been clear:
edit, then upload, past work.

But, after 224 posts, seeing poetry and prose all published,
the future looms uncertain.

Anxiety has risen.

I fret over not being a proper blogger.
Thinking my existence too dull to write about.

 

Should I just stop?

What to do next?

 

 

Here are three basic options:

 

1) Take a break?

(Which risks resumed oblivion.
Would anybody even notice I’d gone?)

 

2) Recommence Daily Notes?

(Presently terminated at 2012.)

(My concern is, these notes turn increasingly political, from 2013.
Since politics are notoriously divisive, I fear alienating valued followers.)

 

3) Recycle forgotten items?

(During the first eight months my blog remained text only; and under-tagged.
Views were very low.)

I could update selected early pieces.
Thus keeping things active: while leaving more mental energy,
for new writing.

 

(There’s also a novel, left unfinished.)

 

 

In seven days
a choice must be made!

 

 


 

 

I am sincerely grateful for your support.

And hope you continue visiting my site.  🙏

 

Comments are always VERY welcome.

 

Thanks for reading!

 

🙂

 

 

 

(Art on the blog is mine.)

 


( anxiety / art / blog / blogging / depression / drawing / life / mental health / poetry / politics /  prose / reading / thoughts / writing )

 

15 thoughts on “At an end?”

    1. Thank you, River!
      Because my energy levels are kept unusually low by illness I’ve needed to focus purely on the blog, so far.
      But recycling sounds less demanding, hence
      about as near to a break as I can get, while still actually posting each week.

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  1. I dont know what to advise in terms of options. But keep writing, it honestly doesnt matter about views or likes. The way I view it is even if I reach one person with blog it’s worth it. I write for me no one else. Good luck whatever you decided

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  2. Wow. You’ve had a lot, I mean A LOT on your plate. I commend you on pushing through so much. I just stumbled across your blog and am about to case your entire blog. Hope you don’t mind? I also hope you stick around. Maybe we could become good WP friends? You never know right? 🙂 Cheers!

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  3. Hey there Ken ! I know I am late, but I just wanted to tell I am glad you kept posting even though it’s not easy for you.
    And also are you working on your unfinished novel ?
    I hope you are, because so many of your friends and followers ( AND ME !!!) would LOVE to read it.
    I hope you are doing well, Ken.
    Sending you smiles, lots of them.

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    1. Thank you, Harshada!
      I still haven’t gotten back to work on the novel yet, it was about 65% done when I left off.

      This post is from a time when I was feeling very DOWN about my blog.
      But I kept going.
      Then things really improved, a lot, in terms of blog success, since April 2020.

      And now, your lovely comments are, also, a part of that improvement! 🌞

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      1. I am glad you kept going. 😇
        And I am happy that your blog is getting the recognition it deserves and I am sure it’s going to be only uphill from now on.
        And I hope you finish that novel and publish it too so that I’ll place a prebook order as soon as I get the news !🙈😎✨

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